Worst Parenting Moment...EVER.

So this past Friday night was awful. Things just weren't going as I had planned and I was a little dissapointed. We found ourselves with 3 tired and grumpy boys and no dinner plans. Andy ran out to get a pizza for the boys' dinner. I was giving baths while he was gone. After Ty's bath I got him dressed and he walked out of his room. I followed him several steps behind. Next thing I knew he was falling down the stairs. FAIL! The gate was down. I didn't realize the gate was down. THE GATE WAS DOWN. It had been up before the bath and I the panicked thought "is the gate up" didn't come quickly enough. It is hard to constantly be aware of the GATE...among 199,999 other things with 3 children! So yes, my dear, sweet, perfect baby fell down the stairs. He was screaming for a while. He had carpet burn on his nose and a bump on his forehead. I flew down the steps and grabbed him up and didn't let go for a long time. I did check him over to make sure there weren't any other major injuries...I've never had a child fall down the stairs before! I held myself together for quite a while, until the boys were in bed and then I couldn't stop crying. I just was so mad at myself and so upset for Tyler. Poor baby. Thankfully he is fine and I know he won't remember it, but it sure was scary!