January 10, 2009

My little Ty

Ok. So I'm still very thankful that Ty's birthmark isn't causing serious complications. But over the last couple days the whole Port wine stain is really bothering me. To me it is noticeable and I just have this fear that as he gets older if it stays the way it is now then he'll be made fun of or teased. He is so precious and sweet and so handsome. But kids are mean. If he has a bright pink side to his face he will be made fun of. I don't think I'll handle that well. I don't want him to be self conscious or think that he is unattractive. Maybe my worry is for nothing and it will fade. But I can't stop thinking that as he gets older what life will be like for him. What will go through his mind? Kids are self conscious enough without having something that noticeable. I know many of you will say it's not dark. But at home there are days that Andy and I say to each other "it's dark today" or when he is crying/eating/working hard and it darkens it is really noticeable. I think he is perfect and precious but I just want him to be confident in who he is and not avoided or made fun of because kids think he is "different". How do you handle something like this and not just think about it and worry about it? I'm ok, I just want to know that he's going to be ok and be able to handle whatever comes his way. Will it be every time that I tell him he is cute/handsome etc in his mind he's thinking he's not just because of his birthmark? Am I being ridiculous? My anxiety is pretty evident in this post. But I needed to get it off my chest. Sorry for the randomness of my thoughts!


kara Forston said...

He IS adorable and handsome! I think kids are mean regardless of birthmarks...I already worry about Leslie going to preschool or the first time she comes home from middle school crying because somebody called her a mean name. Your anxiety is normal...being a mom is hard!!!

Cara said...

I understand how you feel. Silas is different too. I'm honestly not too worried about his deformity. I know Ty's is different, but at least in his early years he will view the birthmark like you and Andy do. If it's not a big deal to you, it won't be to him.
Kids can be mean, but home will need to be his safe place. You will build him up, tell him God created him, give him what he needs to be strong and he will go back out into the world.
Think of what a strong, compassionate person he could become all because of a red spot on his face. He's healthy, he's adorable and we know he's going to be smart. Try not to worry about the future. Enjoy him today! Everything will be fine.

Sarah said...

I echo everything Cara said. I understand how you must feel-I worry about that for Caleb and he doesn't even have anything obvious for me to worry ABOUT...we just know as teachers how kids can sometimes be, which is not always nice! However, I'm sure you are an awesome mom and will give him the confidence to face the world, knowing that God made him special and he is loved by God, your family and your friends.